The new third eye blind.
this is the last time I write about you.
I pray it is.
I pray.
--Sharp Knife--
Time tick tick ticks after me
My mp3 is out of juice
I wrote a song for you but what's the use
How did we get knocked so loose, knocked so loose.
Someone I swore I'd never be
Who trades his dreams for security
Walks this city blindly
Lately it's a little hard for me to see
Lately it's a little hard for me to believe
And it's all disappearing
And it all falls apart
And it seems like the ending
Is a lot like the start
Well nature has its own rules
Like gravity crushing me
And lies, I'm of the memory
Lately it's a little hard for me to believe
At least you left a mark on me
And I think there's a reason
At least there's a sign
And all that we call chaos
I will say it's by design
But I'm just lying
What you need is a sharp knife, son
To come back down from an all time low
I think I'm not the only one
I wish I was a sharp knife
Swing that blade right through my life
Careful, you could hurt someone
I wish I was a sharp knifeto cut
A shiv,
A shiv,
A shiv,
A shiv.
So new friend can you hear this?
Can we return to fearless?
Merry pranksters one and all
And walk that devil down the hall
Yes it's all disappearing
And we should all just go along
And it all would be so easy,
If we could just say, "let it be."
But that's not me.
What you need is a sharp knife, son.
You can come out of an all time low
Seems like I'm not the only one
I know I'm not the only one
I wish I was a sharp knife
Swing that blade right through my life
Careful, you could hurt someone
I wish I was a sharp knife,
A sharp knife,
To cut.
A shiv,
A shiv,
A shiv,
A shiv.
What you need is a sharp knife son
You can come back down from an all time low
Seems like I'm the only one
I wish I was a sharp knife.
Swing that blade right through my life
Careful you could hurt someone
I wish I was a sharp knife
A sharp knife
To cut.
A shiv,
A shiv,
A shiv,
- Mood:
nostalgic
Losing a whole year
I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
Losing a whole year
Hiding in your room we'd lay like dogs
And the phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid
Losing a whole year
Rich daddy left you with a parachute
Your voice sounds like money and your face is cute
But your daddy left you with no love
You touch everything with a velvet glove and
Now you wanna try your life with sin
You wanna be down with the down and in
Always copping my truths
I kinda get the feeling like I'm being used
And now I realize that you never heard
One goddamned word I ever said
Losing a whole year
Losing a whole year
I took your stuff and put it in the basement
When I found out what the smile on you face meant
I seen you pop that check
Craning your neck at the car wreck
And it always seems that the juice used to flow
In the car, in the kitchen you were good to go
Now we're stuck with the tube
A sink full of dishes and some aqua lube
And I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
Hey boy
Losing a whole year
If it's not the defense then your on the attack
When you start talking I hear the Prozac
Convinced you found your place
With the pierced queer teens in cyberspace
When you were yourself there was tasting sweet
Sours into a routine deceit
Well this drama is a bore
And I don't wanna play no more
Losing a whole year
I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed
Hey boy
Hey boy
Thee boyfriend got me this for christmas.
The kindle 2.
Now he's being a sensitive man.
He's amazing and I adore him but he doesn't really get my "eat shit" sense of humor.
Oh, what a world.
I just want to cuddle.
Nick got me some wine from florida.
It was this little hole in the wall I fell in love with when I went down there after my uncle committed suicide.
He found the card and ordered me some strawberry wine and other fruit wines.
I didn't accept the gift.
I was thankful nonetheless.
Weeks feel like torture.
My bed is getting bigger.
My heart is so heavy.
Lets get light heads for our heavy hearts.
To my friends.
I love you more than words.
You are my rock.
i efel oyu.
moce mhoe.
i luowd liki ofr uoy.
nime.
ym eahrt.
ervyehitgn.
figure it out boy.
I love making things for my new bf.
I love my new life and my new/old friends.
They are my heart and I couldn't and won't ask for anyone or anything else.
Chelsea and I spent 1000 dollars shopping the other day.
It felt good.
She is such a beautiful person.
I was a fool.
I'm happy.
I'm so fucking happy.
I just am waiting for my loves return to the states.
Comeee with me...my loveeee...to the seaaaa...the seaaa of love...
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.
"Fools" said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence.
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence."
Where he is.
Where he sleeps.
Where he fights.
Where he lives for another 8 weeks.
Petty people with bad intentions.
Clueless about what's real and what destroys.
You know deep inside of you what's right.
You know deep inside of you that enough is and has been enough.
On the other hand.
The bad intentions and the all time low I was at while they were apart of my life has opened a new door.
By closing that door and locking it I've entered a new place that has been filled with some much good it's hard to not actually be happy.
Grateful for the hardships and dark I was going through.
Everything is light.
Everything feels pure and real for the first time in a long time.
I've held things against people.
I've held a lot back.
I became something and somebody I didn't even know anymore.
I lost my true friends but I got them back.
Including a true man with good intentions.
Including new friends with nothing but the best intentions.
Caring about how I am.
Where I am.
What I am doing.
How I feel.
When I hit the bottom I didn't stay there and feel sorry for myself.
I didn't stay and let it consume me.
I got over it and I got myself right back up and moved on.
I got myself back and I am excited about his return.
Where I am.
Who I am around and what I'm doing.
I'm around people who are doing things and growing up.
I'm around people who trust each other because they have every reason to.
I'm around people who mean what they say.
I'm around people who open their arms and love you.
How dare I think the past thoughts.
If I keep going back and living in all of my past with all of its pain.
Oh, take me back to the start...
Ohhh, nobody said it was easy...
Autagonistophilia Unlike exhibitionism where the person intentionally exposes their genitals to an unsuspecting stranger, in this paraphilia the person creates situations in which other people could see them in the nude if the person wanted to. For example, it would be like leaving your curtains open and walking around the house naked in hopes that someone would peep in the windows. It is the thought that someone may be watching that is sexually arousing.
Autassassinophilia The person is sexually aroused by putting themselves in situations in which they may be killed. They really have to feel they are in danger in order to be sexually aroused. Unfortunately, many of them get killed in the process.
Biastophilia In this paraphilia the person is sexually aroused by the idea of being raped. This is scripted and planned out ahead of time with a partner. The person does not actually want to be raped by a stranger.
Ephebophilia This is a form of pedophilia, but the person is very specific in the size, shape, and amount of body hair the pre-pubescent child has.
Erotophonophilia These people are dangerous. They are sexually aroused by attempts not just thoughts of killing someone.
Gerontophilia The person is only sexually aroused by a significantly older person. There has to be at least a 15 year difference between their ages.
Hybristophilia Sexual relations with a convicted criminal.
Mixophilia The person likes to watch their partner or themselves engage in sexual activity. Usually this means watching themselves in a mirror.
Necrophilia Engaging in sexual activities with dead people.
Pictohilia Watching X-rated films is sexually arousing.
Raptophilia Same as biastophilia.
Somnophilia The person can only maintain sexual arousal while having sex with someone who is sleeping. If the person wakes up they loose interest.
Telephonicophilia Talking dirty on the phone or being talked to lewdly.
Urophilia Being urinated on or urinating on someone. Golden showers
Zoophilia The person wants to be treated like an animal wearing a collar and even eating out of an animals dish. This is different from bestiality in which the person wants to have sex with an animal.
— Stanislaw Lem
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